I Can't Tell You What It Really Is, I Can Only Tell You What It Feels Like...

Ugh... the past couple of weeks have been a string of bad news.

It started with my car accident. While it wasn't that big of deal and the other driver was at fault, dealing with Geico insurance was a MAJOR pain. I ended up filing a claim through my own insurance company so I could get started on the car repairs.

The accident also occurred on my way to calling hours for a friend's father.

My 18 year old niece decided to move in with her boyfriend. And no one has heard much from in the past month. She's being selfish, stubborn, and careless and no one can seem to get through to her.

After that, we found out my former manager's dad was killed in a car accident.

Then, two people we know recently found out they have breast cancer. One of them is the daughter of our best friends. This one is hitting me hard.

These are friends who were just recently so thrilled to be a part of wedding party on our special day. She was my bridesmaid, he was M's best man. Friends that would do absolutely anything for us... as we would do for them. M has been friends with this couple since before I was born. And their daughter? Well, M remembers the first day he met her... the day her mom brought her home from the hospital. She is only a year older than I am. She's young and healthy. Her and her husband were going to start trying to have kids. So how does this happen?

On my way home from the gym, I persisted that M tell me NOW when I was on the phone with him. All he said was, "we need to talk later." He finally just told me over the phone... "L has breast cancer." I thought I was going to be sick.

Other than the initial conversations, I haven't talked much to our friends or their daughter. I feel awful about it, but I don't even know what to say... or what to do for them. I wish I could just make it all go away. I feel helpless. I want to fix it.