Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Selfish?

My sister had her baby today. I'm not sure how I feel about that. If you recall, I first blogged about it here. Clearly, she has no business having a baby. While I know I should be somewhat happy... really, I'm just not. I feel bad for the child. Financially, my parents will support both my sister and her son, but that doesn't change the fact that my sister will still have to be a parent. Unless she matures overnight, her child will pay the price.

On Christmas, my dad and stepmom yelled at the rest of us kids for not being supportive enough. For one, I'm quite sick of being told how to act. Two, I'm not really sure why they seem to think everyone should be happy about this like they are.

Another reason I am feeling a little bitter has to do with my recent engagement to M. I realize this is probably going to come off as selfish. My dad and stepmom were in Las Vegas when M proposed. I texted a picture of the ring to my stepmom. She came back and said Congrats. The next day she texted a few times asking if we had a date in mind. Since they got back from Las Vegas? I haven't heard a word. I haven't even received as little as a phone call. I've heard absolutely nothing from my own dad. M thought maybe they were upset. It bothers me a lot that their actions... or lack of... make M feel this way. I don't think they are upset about it at all. They like M a lot. This is just how they are.

So why do I feel insanely jealous of my sister? Because she screwed up BIG time and my parents have done nothing but bend over backwards to make this easier for her (and she doesn't even appreciate it), yet they can't even make a phone call to talk to me about my engagement. Selfish? Probably. But it pisses me off.

1 comment:

  1. It's not selfish to be jealous of your sister or the way your parents treat her in comparison to the way they treat you...or I'd be very selfish myself.

    I hope this serves as a wake-up call to your sister and she changes, but my cousin did the exact same thing and 2.5 years later, she's the same way she used to be. Her daughter is more like an accessory, like a handbag, than an actual person. And it sounds bitchy to say, but she's a horrid mother.

    And if she doesn't change, then your parents may end up like my aunt and uncle and they'll end up being the ones to raise her child. Afterall, children can't raise children.

    And congrats on the engagement!

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